Self-Worth

This is the post where I jump on the Bruce Jenner blogging bandwagon. Though, it's really not. It's just what inspired this post.

I'm not here to talk about what he did being wrong or right or whatever, though if you know me at all I'm sure you can figure out where I stand on that. That's not the point though.

I'm more disturbed on how this is affecting the people who see it and their reactions. I've seen a lot of "She's hot" and the like. And of course everyone's entitled to their own opinion.

However, I think there needs to be a wake-up call here: IT'S NOT REAL!

Okay, I said it. Debate everything else, but can we all agree on this? It's fake. The doctors who did the surgeries will tell you it ain't "all natural." It's not organic, it's not BPA-free (that I'm aware of), it's not non-GMO. K? K.

And this is where it gets dicey. I see so many women, comparing themselves to this person. Saying that he/she's hot, wishing they looked like him/her, dreaming about how they're going to look in their 60s, and shaming themselves for not looking the same.

We may as well all compare ourselves to Jessica Rabbit. I mean, she ain't real either. And she's all (by the world's standards anyway) gorgeous, sexy, put together, desirable, etc.

Why are we doing this? Why, oh why? We're comparing ourselves to people who have spent a bazillion dollars (or have a great animator) to make themselves Barbie. I have two daughters- I take this to heart like any mama bear. I don't want them to grow up confused and worried. I don't want them to think that's how they have to look and act to live life well.

If we're going to compare, why not compare our compassion? Our forgiveness? Our responsibility? Our work ethic? Our love? Our self-control? Our joyfulness? Our intellect? Our talents?

I still don't think we should go around comparing any of those things to each other. Comparing never goes well. But, being humans, we're bound to compare. So, if we are guaranteed comparers (yep, just made that word up), these would at least challenge ourselves to better ourselves on something more than a physical level.

1 Timothy 4:8 "For physical training is of some value, but godliness has value for all things, holding promise for both the present life and the life to come."

Can I just suggest a challenge here? How about we don't compare ourselves to each other, regardless of how "amazing" we look from the outside or how we seem to be uber-successful and able to "do it all" flawlessly. Quick note: I said "seem." Please tuck that away. No one is truly able to look perfect, act perfect, think perfect, or do perfect.

Can we compare ourselves to the only perfect person? Someone who's not on the cover of a magazine?

Can we find our self-worth in Jesus? Instead of seeing the acne, the wrinkles, the gray hair, the sags, the failures, the confusion, and the mistakes- can we see the person Jesus made? Can we see the masterpiece He created? That word, masterpiece, is translated elsewhere as workmanship:

Psalm 139:14 "Thank you for making me so wonderfully complex! Your workmanship is marvelous- how well I know it!"

Friends, He thinks you are MARVELOUS! He made you marvelous! In Greek "poiēma" means a thing that is made. God made you, specifically YOU!

I went ahead and did a search on Bible verses that show what God thinks of you. I pray you don't doubt what He sees in you any longer!

Psalm 139:17 "How precious are your thoughts toward me, O God. They cannot be numbered!" That word precious means "prized, esteemed, costly, highly valued." You, my friend, are highly valued.

Jeremiah 29:11 '"For I know the plans I have for you,' says the LORD. 'They are plans for good and not for disaster, to give you a future and a hope.'" Good, future, hope. Hold on to those words.

Zephaniah 3:17b "He will take delight in you with gladness. With his love, he will calm all your fears. He will rejoice over you with joyful songs.” He delights in you! He's so stinking happy when He sees you, He may just as well be giddy!

1 John 3:16a "We know what real love is because Jesus gave up His life for us." Are we all agreed that someone who sacrifices their life for ours truly loves us? No matter what? Despite our shortcomings? Regardless of how we've hurt them?

Someone needs to hear this: He didn't make a mistake with you.

Friend, we need to find our joy, our self-esteem, our self-worth in the One who laid down His life for us. Who took our punishment so we could be free. He loves you like no person ever could, or ever will. His love is endless, boundless, regardless of our actions. All we have to do is accept it.

Look in that mirror. He made a masterpiece. And He done good.

Panic Button

It's amazing I'm not morphing into a headless chicken. Really.

Let's see, in the past couple days I have been working a ton on my new proofreading business. I have been cut down in my new proofreading business. My classmates, from this class, have lifted me back up in my proofreading business after I wanted to just cry and eat ice cream for the rest of the day. I have restarted working my business after wanting to go completely crazy.

Working for yourself is hard ya'll! Worth it in the end, but hard!

What else?

Oh our car went back to the mechanic (again), we moved Talia to a booster seat, Katelyn has a toddler bed now, and our plumbing under our kitchen sink fell apart while I was washing dishes. Now I can hate dishes even more! Yay! Not to mention I'm behind on all things housewife-y, mother-y, and housekeeper-y.

And don't get me started on how far behind I am on my Bible reading. We are supposed to be done in four days! And I'm a good 5 days behind... Who gets behind on something right before they finish it? That'd be me.

So am I here to vent? Well, yeah, but not just to vent.

I want to remind anyone going crazy like me: You aren't alone, it's okay, and it will get better!

Maybe I'm just talking to myself, and that's fine with me. In that case, self, take this advice from myself:

1. Calm it down! Your self-worth is not based on others' opinions of you, how you proofread compared to others, how clean your house is, or how many fits your kids throw. It's based on what God thinks of you, and self, He thinks pretty darn highly of you!

2. Ask for help! Don't think you're alone in this world. Last I checked, there were a few billion people residing here with ya. I'm sure one, maybe even two, could lend a helping hand! I would even guess you personally KNOW one or two people who would help.

3. Press the panic button! What's that? Pray. Pray, pray, pray, PRAY! Really, this should be #1, so don't take this list too chronologically seriously. Being in constant conversation with Jesus can never go wrong.

4. Know it will work out. The floor WILL get mopped, you WILL get caught up reading, dishes WILL get done, and the kids WILL learn.

5. Get a system in place. Self, you need to ingrain this into your brain like none other.

6. Get rid of the non-importants. Give the kids to Papa and Nana and clean out that basement! Say no to things that aren't essential. Prioritize your life!

Come on, self, we can do this!

Proofread Anywhere Review

Hey friends. Many of you have asked about my new career as a legal transcript proofreader. Well, I'm here to explain more and give a review of the course I took.

Here's the short and sweet version of what I do. I proofread transcripts from depositions, examinations under oath, hearings, etc. for court reporters. They pay me.

Told you it was short and sweet! :)

Now, I grew up with impeccable English skills. My dad was a journalist for years and my mom did copy editing. I have my associate's degree in English. So this is a pretty natural fit for me! I'm always finding errors in books, online, signs, etc. I even found errors in the oh-so-popular, and oh-so-fabulous, Hunger Games books! Even amazingly huge novels like that have issues!

I never expected to use my English degree. Ever. I know so many people who don't use their degrees. For example, my dad is now a real estate agent.

So, I was definitely shocked and a little skeptical when I came across ProofreadAnywhere.com via MoneySavingMom.com. But, I was also excited. This sounded right up my alley!

I talked to Caitlin, who founded the site, a lot. I'm sure she got real sick of me asking question after question after question. ;)  But it was so nice to talk to a real person, get quick answers, and have a real conversation with her. I decided to take her full-fledged course.

Wow. This course was not exactly what I was expecting- which is not necessarily a bad thing. I do remember asking Caitlin what she teaches in it and how much she equips you. But, wow, did I feel out of my depth real quick. Certain punctuation and grammar rules were totally different from everything I'd been taught! I kept missing things I should have caught. About halfway through the class, I had a big panic attack and was losing my mind!

But here's what's really cool: I wasn't alone. She has a Facebook group set up and I was able to ask questions to several different people. I saw, and still see, others getting frustrated like me. And it's all okay! So she not only teaches this class, she creates this community to better each other, better ourselves, and support each other.

This is a hard class. It's not a quick-and-easy thing you can do in an hour. It requires an amazing eye for errors, it requires hard work, it requires time, and it requires humility. Really, I went in thinking it wouldn't be "that bad." I don't think I would call it "that bad" now, but it was kind of shocking (and very humbling!) to realize how much I had to learn from scratch.

Now, I am much more confident in my skills. I still tend to do things my own way, but that's okay. I now have a much broader scope of proofreading skills, and a sharper eye for legal transcripts in particular. I learned some things about me that I never thought I would, like how I now despise hyphens with a passion and that most reporters ignore the Oxford comma, which just makes me twitch a bit. (If you don't know what an Oxford comma is, I would say be grateful because it tends to induce twitching.) Some things you just gotta let go... woosaw...

I am very thankful my frugal self stumbled upon this course. It's challenged me in so many ways, grown me as a person as well as my skills, opened my eyes to this whole new legal world, and (hopefully!) will allow us to do some things we can't do right now (hello private school!).

Thank you, Caitlin, for this course, and everyone for letting me bother you day and night. I'm excited to see what it turns into. (Wait... in to? LOL just kidding...)

We're Homeschooling! (Yipe!)

It's been forever since I wrote on here... I guess that tends to happen when you get busy, exhausted, and repeat that cycle.

I've wanted to write about this for a while though- homeschooling!

Yes, we're doing it. I won't say for how long we're doing it, but for Kindergarten at least. I'm not sure anything makes me more excited, terrified, dreadful, confused, and anxious as this. I'm going to need prayers!!!!

I get asked a lot as to why we're doing it and there are so many reasons. They include the flexibility,  being in control of what she's learning, me hating Common Core, challenging her on-on-one, and sleeping in (hehe...). Seriously though, she is so stinking advanced with reading that she blows my mind every day! I think she started reading on her own a month ago or so Not to mention I am SO excited to go on field trips that I plan out and have them be a mini-vacation!

I told my husband straight up that if I commit to this I'm doing a one-day-a-week program. I need that one day badly... I researched several places and wasn't super impressed by any.

This is where the story gets crazy! One day on our way home from preschool, my daughter asked to go a different way home. Note: in nine months of going to preschool, we have NEVER gone this way before. But I figured what the heck, so I let her navigate home, and we happened to pass the Christian school by our house. Their marquee out by the street had a sign that said "Homeschool Program" and I just about wrecked the car in excitement.

I cannot tell you how many times I've driven by that school and not seen that sign. I haven't seen it since either. Talk about some Divine Intervention!

So, I came home, and immediately emailed them to get more information. I was able to schedule a tour two days later, and completely fell in love! So did my daughter- she didn't want to leave LOL! She will still get a Christian education, it's close to our house, and it's not nearly as expensive as full-time Christian school. Personally, I'd love to put her in there full-time, but holy moly private school is pricey!

That's all the good news so far! We're so excited about this. I'm still worried over her being at home six days a week, us butting heads, getting bored/cabin fever, or just slacking off and not doing anything for a year. Preschool has been an enormous blessing, so doing something different has me nervous! In other words, please PLEASE pray for me!!

Just Sharing Some Goals

Happy New Year's Eve Eve! ;)

It's currently snowing, and well below freezing, as I'm sipping my coffee and hanging with my almost 5 year old. There's too much to do inside my house (aka post Christmas clean-up) that I am purposely pretending isn't there.

There's a good foot of snow on the ground, a balmy -4 or 14 degrees (depending on which thermometer I look at), and all this makes me want to procrastinate even more.

Which is bad.

So to counteract my slothful state I'm going to type up my 2015 goals. Hopefully when I'm done I'll have some more motivation to, you know, vacuum and such...

1. Blog 3 times per week (since I've been absent doing this for several weeks and I've missed it!).

2. Get this house painted inside and out in entirety by this summer.

3. Make chore cards or chart for the almost 5 year old. I really like this one!

4. Get out of bed  before the almost 5 year old (she's an early bird, I love sleeping, and our house isn't very sound proof so this could be very interesting...).

5. Sit down with the husband and figure out a better budgeting system. We already are "good" with money, but we tend to give ourselves too much slack overall and we need to keep ourselves more disciplined. Specifically start doing the cash budget envelope system from Dave Ramsey. I also want to increase our giving and our saving to a larger and more set amount.

6. Exercise 3-4 times per week. I know, everyone has this goal and it's not very exciting and easily the hardest one to stick to. In 2014 though I started exercising more and got a FREE treadmill given to us, so I really have no excuse to not do it. Plus I tend to have old lady joint problems when I am a sloth... Not cool when you're only 28.

7. NOT get behind on my Bible reading plan anymore. My friend I'm doing this with is probably laughing her butt off right now as to how impossible this is going to be to pull off. It is a goal though- something to shoot for! We're already past the halfway point and once we get past some of the harder-to-read prophets it should be smooth sailing! There's my pep talk, we'll see what happens.

8. Drink water. Again, the healthy goals always kind of get an eye-roll since they're so common and fail all the time. Really though, I go DAYS without drinking water so that's not cool. I tend to drink lots of coffee, tea, juice, etc. At least it keeps me alive!

9. Make our wills. This isn't so much a goal as just something that NEEDS DONE BADLY!

10. Keep this house decluttered. I am going to do this by making sure we don't have unnecessary duplicates, and if we don't love something it needs to go!

11. Implement date nights with the husband.

12. Spend a minimum of 15 minutes one-on-one with each daughter every day doing whatever they choose.

13. Read 12 non-fiction books from start to finish throughout the year, maybe even more! Non-fiction is always so much harder for me to read so this will be a challenge.

14. Follow this house cleaning chart each day.

15. Consistently look for ways to bless others throughout the year, specifically ones that are outside my comfort zone. Visit the elderly in nursing homes, pray for others on the spot, etc. Just typing that up makes me nervous!

Let's see how this goes 2015. Feel free to share some of YOUR goals and we can all hold each other accountable. ;)

Happy New Year all! May it be blessed!